I'm thinking of
Thanking all the fucked people
Thanking all the shit I love
They are all the things I've made
Straight from my heart
Begging all the same people
Burning is the same evil
Somehow making me feel sane

Waiting all this time
I've got nothing to hold on
But the faces of my life
I can see before I'm gone

Sometimes I feel it chasing me
All the hate that's breaking me
I realise I'm taking everything
And the kids seem to follow

This time I feel it taking me
To a place I'd hate to be
All along I seem to make believe
And the shit seems to follow

I'm thinking of
Making all the fucked people
Making the bitches I love
Make them die and go away
Pain from the start
All my dreams are ripped apart
Thanking all the fucked people
They are all the things I've saved

Waiting all this time
I've got nothing to hold on
But the faces of my life
I can see before I'm gone

Sometimes I feel it chasing me
All the hate that's breaking me
I realise I'm taking everything
And the kids seem to follow

This time I feel it taking me
To a place I'm meant to be
All along I seem to make believe
And the shit seems to follow

Your life, I hate it
Oh God, can I reclaim?
Stop and help me

Sometimes I feel it chasing me
All the hate that's breaking me
I realise I'm taking everything
And the shit seems to follow

This time I feel it taking me
To a place I'm meant to be
All along I seem to make believe
And the shit seems to follow

So I think you are a fool
Hanging on my every word
It's getting ugly
So I'm ugly

Tear me from your heart
Tearing me apart

So I thought you disappeared
Being alone is what you fear
Are you lonely?
Yes lonely

Tear me from your heart
Tearing me apart

Rolling, and throwing, consoling
Everything that goes this far
Joking and hoping, revolting
All that shit that's who you are
Hoping, and scolding, revolving
Peel it back, reveal the scar
Loathing, exploding, controlling
This is what you really are

The time is coming
God is saying
You're really happy
What a game
The time is coming
A bed of flames
Your life is over and you're to blame
The time is coming
You've gone insane
You're feeling happy
You've won the game
he time is coming
A bed of flames
Your life is over and you're to blame

Feeding the fall
I can't help but desire of falling down this time
Deep in this hole am I making
I can't escape
Falling all this time

We come to this place
Falling through time
Living a hollow life
Always we're taking
Waiting for signs
Hollow life

Fearing to fall
And still the ground below me calls
Falling down this time
Ripping apart all these things I have tried to stop
Falling down this time

We come to this place
Falling through time
Living a hollow life
Always we're taking
Waiting for signs
Hollow life

Is there ever any wonder
Why we look to the sky
Searching space
Asking why?
All alone
Where is God?
Looking down
We don't know

We fall in space
We can't look down
Death may come
Peace I have found
What to say
Am I alive?
Am I asleep
Or have I died?

(Haunting me)

We fall in space
We can't look down
Death may come
Peace I have found

(Something takes a part of me)

What to say
Am I alive?
Am I asleep
We fall down

It ain't fading
Man I got to let it out
Am I quitting?
Screaming nothing ever come out
I keep feeling lost
I'll never find my way out
I'm not thanking them
Unless the truth can pour out

Give me some courage
Beating me down the (?) sometime
Are you laughing at my body?
I hate and slide
I hate and slide

I take this time
To let out what?s inside
Cause I will panic
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You may bestow my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside

My heart is breaking
Man you really ripped it out
You take pleasure watching as I claw my way out

The hurt rising
Soon it's going to tear my soul out
It?s not kosher feeling like I?m on my way out

Give me some courage
Beating me down sometime
Are you laughing at my body?
I hate and slide
I hate and slide

I'll take this time
To let out what?s inside
Cause I will panic
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You may bestow my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside

Feeling the haze as they cut down my spine
Peeling your flesh like the way you've cut mine
Do you feel happy you fucked up my mind
You?re going to pay this time

Going through the pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying I want your dirty ass in front of me

All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

Come and fill the pages of my fantasies
I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And I'll pull the trigger
And you're down, down, down

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying I want your dirty ass in front of me

All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

All my friends are gone, they died (gonna take you down)
They all screamed, and cried (gonna take you down)

I got my monkey, got my monkey back against the wall
Gonna take you down

Always it's coming
And here starts the game
Why can't this puzzle be solved?
Each time it happens it's always the same
I look down and it starts to fell

And all I see
It burns my eyes
Burning all inside

Caught in the corners of my mind
Beginning over one more time
Taking me over
Taking all that's mine
One more time

Always this teasing
Sometimes I lose faith
Where is my strength to hold on?
Facing existence
How can I relate?
Do I stand here or move on?

And all I see
It burns my eyes
Burning all inside

Caught in the corners of my mind
Beginning over one more time
Taking me over
Taking all that's mine
One more time

Falling through this space and time
Buried in this hurt of mine
Falling slowly like a dream
Falling through a world unseen
Why can I not break this spell?
I'm in darkness
Is this hell?
Falling towards this hole I see
This is how it has to be

Caught in the corners of my mind
Beginning over one more time
Taking me over
Taking all that's mine
One more time

Pick me up
Been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it somehow

I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
Leaving us, it seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Shut me off
I'm ready
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be my own

I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
Leaving us, it seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm hanging from?
Is there nothing more to come?
(Am I gonna leave this place?)
Is it always black in space?
Am I going take its place?
Am I going to leave this race?
(Am I going to leave this race?)
I guess God's up in this place?
What is it that I've become?
Is there something more to come?
(More to come)

We got a fucked up reason to live
Who really gives a fuck?
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna fuck you up
I wanna break everything
I wanna make it sting
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna wake it up
You gotta get it straight
We're gonna give it up
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna fuck you up
I wanna break everything
I wanna make it sting
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna wake it up

I am the burden of my everything
And of its scar
I'll be reborn in hatred
Feeling I can't love no more

I've had to suffer
I cannot wait for more
No loving and no praying
All my hate is for the taking

We got a fucked up reason to live
Who really gives a fuck?
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna fuck you up
I wanna break everything
I wanna make it sting
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna wake it up
You gotta get it straight
We're gonna give it up
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna fuck you up
I wanna break everything
I wanna make it sting
We're gonna wake up hate
We're gonna wake it up

I am the falling of my happiness
It is no more
Stop loving
I'm still hating
Till I can not hate no more

I've had to suffer
I cannot wait for more
No loving and no praying
All my hate is for the taking

I'm, I'm filthy
Wasted piece of shit
I am disgusting
Take me away

Maybe I'm insane
Walking on a wire
Maybe I'm the same
Nothing to take me higher
Tell me where to start
Think I'm at the end
Right now feeling pain
Make it go away

Maybe I'm to blame
Maybe I'm a liar
Maybe we're the same
Nothing can start the fire
I can't feel my heart
But I feel the shame
Nothing left to say
Soon I'll fade away

These places all I ever think about is lost in time
These faces haunting me
I'm looking back and they are mine

I'm hiding from the things they say
Doing time and lead astray
Thinking back to times of yesterday
I could fly

I'm trying to find a better way
But I'm trapped
Can't get away
All I think is about yesterday
I could fly

Maybe I'm insane
Walking on a wire
Maybe I'm the same
Nothing to take me higher
I can't feel my heart
But I feel the shame
Nothing left to say
Soon I'll fade away

These places all I ever think about is lost in time
These faces haunting me
I'm looking back and they are mine

I'm hiding from the things they say
Doing time and lead astray
Thinking back to times of yesterday
I could fly

You and me
We have no faces
Soon our lives they'll be erased
Do you think they will remember?
Or will we just be replaced
Oh I wish that I could see
How I wish that I could fly
All the things that hang above me
To a place where I can cry

So why can it be?
No one's here because
Echoes back at me
No one's there
To all these meaningless feelings
I can't deal with in my life
To all these greedy people
Trying to feed on what is mine
You?ve got to feel your hunger
And stop fucking with my mind
I know it's time to leave these places far behind

You and me
We have no faces
They don't see us anymore
Without love as they had promised
And no faith for what?s in store
Oh I wish that I could see
How I wish that I could fly
All the things that hang above me
To a place where I can cry

So why can it be?
No one's here because
Echoes back at me
No one's there
To all these meaningless feelings
I can't deal with in my life
To all these greedy people
Trying to feed on what is mine
You've got to feel your hunger
And stop fucking with my mind
I know it's time to leave these places far behind

Where are all these feelings hiding?
Dancing in and out my mind
Burning up all that I long for
Feeding me till my decline
Where are you?
My soul is bleeding
I am searching
Am I blind?
All alone and bound forever
Trapped inside me for all time

To all these meaningless feelings
I can't deal with in my life
To all these greedy people
Trying to feed on what is mine
You've got to feel your hunger
And stop fucking with my mind
I know it's time to leave these places far behind

Song Meanings

Here to Stay

Wake Up Hate

The whole song is a fuck off. It's a song about feeling hopeless - how kids have no reason to live anymore. What do they have to fucking live for? Back when I was growing up there were lots of opportunities for kids that seem to have fallen off. They skirt through school and then get meaningless jobs or just go kill people and rob and shit. It's about starting a riot - really fucking rebelling.

*More to come soon!*